thoughts from afar

It seems to be the season where, in spite of all my bustle
and activity, God seems the nearest. And when things wind down, and I make time
for Him, that’s when I feel Him far. I suppose He likes the impromptu better.
Early morning appointments are good and fine, but I guess He wants to be part
of everything that, routine and rituals seem to just get in the way.

I know I’m no spiritual seer, nor am I the higher range of
Godly; in fact, I am but the lowliest. That said, I know He loves the lowliest
too, because He can’t seem to get away from me. Keeps minding my business and
making His way into every circumstance I’m in. Weird of God to do so, but true.

I’m currently so broke I can’t possible afford a single
luxury item, and I am forced to depend on His hand. His sense of humour makes
me curious as to what He would do next. It seems everytime, He’ll do something
and instead of expecting anything or even just getting annoyed, I LAUGH OUT
LOUD. People around me always give me strange looks, but I’m never bothered.
I’ll just keep reading or singing or whatever it is I was doing. It seems so
normal to me.

But not everyday is a mountaintop experience. Most times,
like yesterday, I felt dry, thirsty and panting. I just didn’t feel Him, but He
made sure I remembered that His presence is not a feeling. And that He was
there. Occasionally He does that, and although I can’t say I like it, He seems
to want to train me that way. After all, He’s kept saying It’s near… the times
of plenty is now, but soon, anything can happen. And we won’t be sitting pretty
that’s for sure.

I guess this entry will make it out to the open for the
public to view. I’ve tried many many times to blog, but every entry starts with
an idea, but somehow the expression is not what I imagined it to be. J
This one however, will succeed. I think. Cheerios!

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