Surreal are the places in our world, so clear the places in our minds.

received a piece of news that i dreaded to hear. somehow i could see it coming, but i guess i was hoping so hard that it would not be true, that i chose to remain in denial.

to say that i have failed, could not be so accurate. to know that it was a path they had chosen, that haunts me.

there was this group of people i grew up with, whom i spoke to in tidings of joy or distress. we grew together, and matured by rubbing shoulders with each other. the group is no more. i have secretly always wondered why, if it was because of the abnormal course i took in life - being a mother prematurely, or that my point of view was too radical to swallow.

I found that i was beating myself up over this whole issue, as if it would change things and do me good. But, nothing, i found, helped.

In the end, battle all i want, there is a boundary to respect. And that just means that choices made are choices kept, no matter who made them and what will happen after.

I luv those people more than i can express, ever. And i hope they know that whatever it is, i will be praying for them and supporting them in whatever way i can.

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