proving yourself.

as some of you know, i’ve developed a few new syndromes based on certain personalities in my university. i’m trying to get it put into the DSM-V criteria under personality disorders… there’s the RK-like Syndrome and the Y****k-like Syndrome, and to my observation, many doctors especially seem to fall under these categories. one such is the GP i was attached to for my one week posting.

the youngest of five siblings, he always needed to prove himself. making sure he excelled in every area. got himself into a university in Ireland, worked his butt to graduate and then started work. he served the government 6 years, and felt misused.

he hated the red tape, the politics and just about everything in medicine apart from the actual healing of the sick. after all, the doctor’s job is about the sick, so why are there so many other complications involved?

this is one doctor who has been bitten again and again by the harsh realities of what a doctor faces in this country. i am not one to delve into political issues, but i do fear that i’ll become like him. a victim of bitterness, suffering from the injustice of the system.

he stopped working in the government, angry and upset. had he known this was all he was in for, he would have taken a 180 from this path and done something else. instead, he ventured into the hotel industry, secretly hoping he could reactivate his other childhood ambition of culinary arts. out of the pan into the fire. disappointed again by the corruption and politics, he had to run. again.

finally with his brother, they both set up a cosy clinic, in hopes that if the establishment was their own, that they would be rid of all sticky red tape that so easily entangles. when one wave dies down, the other leaps. he faced opposition from his own relatives and friends. they claimed that if he did not conformed to the ways of other clinics around, he would surely be forced to close down. thankfully his hard head did serve him purpose. he stuck on, and now most of his clients come just for reassurance and just to chat. they’re so comfortable with him, had they any queries about other treatment they received they march straight to him. and however he complains and rants, i’m sure deep down, he enjoys it.

i guess that is what i learnt at my GP Posting. not the management of asthma or how to dress a wound. but how to confront the stormy waters ahead. people always say that live as a civil servant, what more a doctor, would be smooth sailing. i always had my doubts, but was never one to truly explore and be abel to debate that fact. now at least i’ve seen people brave it, and i know i can too.

he had to prove himself so many times for so many reasons, by doing so many things. i pray that he’ll find peace in himself to be secure enough not to care.

the other thing i learnt is that, the above lecturers whose names i created Syndrome from, probably had battles just like he did. so i should see them in a different light. sure they made us feel like worms, and we endure torture by listening to hours of droning about the good old days. but maybe, just maybe, the damage done to them, made them who they are today. so we should be compassionate and understanding. after all, we are all human!

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