judge not!

Judge Not!
Ever feel like shouting that out loud? i do. all the time. i think it’s more than just someone on your nerves, more than being annoyed but a crude slap to the face from selfish, pompous people with no feelings of humility left in any bone in their body.
as most of the readers of this humble blog would know, i am so atypical (my fave word btw!). i’m different without trying but i like to make a point in standing out too. i’m just not your average person, no matter how you rationalize it. i guess you can blame it on a variety of things, but then, i am glad for who i am.
so why then do i have to measure up to others in this rat race? why does being like everyone else have to be my goal in life? after all, being a Christian, i have no other gold standard other than Christ Himself. so who is to tell me to drive a certain way, or to wear clothes a certain way? who is to say if my taste is weird or my leisure choices are condemnable? i am me.
truthfully, i know i am changing. have been since the day i was born. but that doesn’t take my Me-ness away. i’m still gene, genieve, genie, genevieve, mei ching… i’ll still be that when i lie cold and stiff in my mossy grave. you see, the trivial choices people are picky about are the little quirks that excite others about me. so why take that away and replace it with the norm?
i guess the reason i am writing this is because i don’t like it when people feed me their opinions and impose their beliefs on me. i like going out. i like wearing clothes that flaunt my figure. i like eating and gorging myself on fatty food. i love dancing, in my own way (though it is not that good :P) and i love singing even when i go off key! why change me? i don’t want to change that.
the things worth changing are the life choices, not all the choices in life. if we keep worrying about every single detail in life, why don’t we just genetically programme our lives from the very beginning?
now don’t get me wrong. i do appreciate slaps in the face, should i be making a grave mistake, or if i am negligent in something. in fact, i need that a lot. wake up calls from my crazy manic phases, since a gentle nudge sometimes just would not do. but if you interfere with my personal decisions and expect me to look at you with eyes filled with gratitude, you have another thing coming. so the next time you shake your head in disapproval because i went for a massive drinking orgy, or wore a neon yellow bra and a see through shirt, be reminded: I BITE!

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