taking a break during the break.

it’s seems like time has not lapsed. and yet it has long disappeared… finishing the last bits of "Seizures", and yet i feel exam is long time in coming. reality though, is that exam is in three weeks. and time waits for no man.

in as much i want to leave my stress-related problems aside and retreat into the deepest recesses of our lush rainforest jungles, i realise i have to be responsible. i chose this career path after all. should i just walk away, seeing that i have encountered a little difficulty? of course not.

i guess what i feel now, is the feeling of being nearly there, though not quite. my first professional exam around the corner, yet how much do i know, and is adequate to save lives, or will i watch life slip away because of my poverty of knowledge and ignorance of important issues?

time will tell. it will because i’ll see it in my results.

having said all that, i’ve begun to see a pattern. academically, i’m too lazy to excel. so all the last minute studying can’t thrust me far enough for a High Distinction, or even a Distinction at times. i know i can do better, but that is not the point. however, i’ve committed the past few exams into His hands, and drastic changes happen. slowly, marks get better and i improve. it’s can’t be me, since i feel too unnatural to be just me. something divine. definitely…

so then this first professional exam can only show one thing: God’s grace and His Divine Favour. therefore, i boast of my weakness, that i suck at studying, but Him in me, i can do all things. that alone is a boost for more studying! ciao!

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